This is the first part of my Blue Month insights. As always, I’m documenting my personal journey with color—what I experienced, how I felt, and what I learned. You can also read about my previous color months: Black, Red, and Purple. Stay tuned for Part 2, where I dive deeper into my reflections and unexpected challenges with blue.
Entering the Blue Month
I didn’t have the feeling that I was eagerly waiting for blue. Nor did I feel like I couldn’t wait to take off purple. Everything just felt… fine. Compared to purple, blue felt like coming home – returning to something familiar.
In the end, I made peace with purple. I realized it actually calmed me down and sparked many ideas. Still, it isn’t my color.
Some things simply can’t be understood. We don’t always know which colors had a strong influence on us in childhood – shaping our thoughts and emotions subconsciously, even years later.
So, I welcomed blue with open arms. The transition felt like a relief, like returning to familiar waters – back to my comfort zone. And honestly, who doesn’t like being in their comfort zone?
Not only was it familiar to me personally, but blue is also considered the world’s favorite color according to research. That put me in a different mindset – I wasn’t standing out anymore. Not because the color was too bold, nor because it was unusual. Even if I were dressed from head to toe in blue, no one would turn their head or wonder why. It’s just that normal.
Starting Fresh in Blue
I didn’t expect a big shift between lilac and blue since both are calming colors. However, I did wonder if blue would calm me down more mentally, meaning I might not have as many ideas as I did with purple.
I wanted to enter this month with no expectations. An open mind. No preconceptions. I put my knowledge aside – just as I had done in previous months.
I had a feeling this would be a calm month, without any major insights.
A Surprise from My Wardrobe
At the start, I assumed I had plenty of blue clothing and wouldn’t need to buy anything. But I quickly realized that most of my blue pieces weren’t warm enough for February’s cold temperatures. So, I ended up adding a few new items after all.
This project has actually proven to me that I don’t need a lot of things. I keep reaching for the same pieces over and over again anyway.
Funnily enough, on the last day of my purple month, a friend gave me a gift – a blue turtleneck, beautifully wrapped in blue paper with a purple ribbon. A symbolic transition from purple to blue.
My Blue Month Rules: Tones and Combinations
Since I have a separate month dedicated to cyan and turquoise tones, I decided to focus on ultramarine, and its shades in February.
The blues I wore included:
Royal Blue, Cobalt Blue, Ultramarine, Navy, Sapphire, Cerulean, Ocean Blue, and Sky Blue.
Value: Not too high, not too low.
Chroma: As pure as possible, but lower chroma was allowed.
As for combinations, I paired blue mostly with neutrals (black and beige), but not on the top – a full blue outfit worked best. I stuck to this rule almost entirely, only once or twice wearing brown pants as an exception.
Noticing Blue Everywhere
On February 1st, I painted my nails blue and started wearing a lapis lazuli bracelet every day.
By February 3rd, I noticed something funny – I was suddenly seeing blue everywhere.
I had just heard a song in the car that I hadn’t listened to in years – Blue (Da Ba Dee). And suddenly, blue cars seemed to be everywhere.
This has happened with every color so far. As soon as my focus shifts, these little synchronicities start appearing.
By mid-month, I started feeling off. I don’t know what’s wrong, but something feels out of balance.
It was a crazy weekend – we celebrated my daughter’s 13th birthday, and I still needed time to recover, let alone start anything productive.
February 16: Mental Exhaustion
I barely wrote in my journal this month.
Today, I feel mentally drained – an absolute disaster. I can’t even remember the last time I was truly alone… and that exhausts me more than anything.
It’s been nonstop one thing after another. No time to pause, no moment of solitude. And I can only truly recharge when I’m alone.
Just when everything was finally over, my second daughter got sick and stayed home from school. So I never really got that moment of peace.
Even when I did find a brief moment to write, it wasn’t enough. I need time to reset first, to clear my mind before I can even think about creating. After turbulent periods like this, I need several days to recover before I can get back into a creative flow.
I don’t know if this feeling is because of blue or just the circumstances aligning this way. No idea.
February Reflections: The Blue Experience
Now I’m starting to wonder – how will I survive next month in gray?
It feels like I need a dopamine kick – something pink, orange, or yellow. For a moment, I even considered changing my planned color sequence, slipping one of those bright, uplifting colors into next month instead of gray – just to help me recover.
But I won’t do it. I have to be practical. It’s freezing cold outside, and my warmest coat is gray. And I don’t even own anything warm in those other, brighter colors. So changing the order isn’t an option.
And now, here I am, still in blue, sitting and writing. I love this color – it feels natural to me, familiar, and I’ll definitely continue wearing it even after this project.
But… based on this experience, I’ve learned something important – I need to be mindful of when and how often I wear blue. I won’t wear it for too many consecutive days in the future.
I can’t say with 100% certainty that blue is the reason I’ve been feeling this way. There are so many factors at play. But I do know one thing:
If I were to put on red, yellow, or pink right now, I would instantly feel different – better, more energized, uplifted.
I won’t do it now – this project comes first. But I will remember this for the future.
So, maybe blue isn’t necessarily the cause of my low energy… but it definitely isn’t helping me feel better and more vibrant either.
Feeling Blue – Literally
I really didn’t expect to feel this down during my blue month.
I’m still excited about the project, but it’s as if I don’t have enough energy right now. I want to do things, but I just don’t have the strength. I’m constantly tired, unfocused, and, for some reason, sad.
I have no idea why.
Feeling blue. Literally.
I know from color psychology that blue affects us mentally, not physically. But maybe my mind is so overloaded that it has started draining me physically as well. That’s exactly what it feels like – like my head is too full, and that feeling is exhausting me on every level.
And now, as I’m writing this, I’m thinking – it’s not fair to put all of this on blue.
Blue is beautiful, in all its shades. I love blue. And now, here I am, feeling like I should defend it.
But I also need to be honest. I have to write what I feel, as it is.
And the truth is – I can’t lie to myself and pretend I feel good, just because I want to „save“ blue.
Should I Continue Light Therapy?
Since my family was staying in the guest room, I couldn’t do my light therapy because that’s where my device is.
Now, I’m wondering – should I even continue it this month?
Would blue light push me even deeper into this low-energy state? I have no idea.
But on the other hand, those 30 minutes are such a nice break – a moment to pause, rest, and meditate.
Maybe I should give it a try anyway.
In Part 2, I’ll share how blue affected me emotionally, why it became my most mentally intense month so far, and what ultimately saved me. You can find it here: Blue Month Insights – Part 2.
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