If you haven’t read the first part of my Blue Month insights yet, you can find it here: Blue Month Insights – Part 1. In this second part, I explore the emotional impact of blue, how it influenced my energy, and why I’ll be more mindful of how I wear it in the future.
It’s Not Just Blue… But Gray Won’t Help Either
To be fair, the weather has been cold, and I can’t stand the cold. I also haven’t spent much time outside in the past few weeks (or months), so I’m probably dealing with a vitamin D3 deficiency as well.
And let’s not forget my irregular sleep habits – they’ve definitely contributed to how I’m feeling.
So, I can’t blame it all on blue.
But one thing I do know – gray next month won’t make things better.
Psychologically, gray is the only color that has no positive impact on our psyche. Every other color has both positive and negative effects – but not gray. That’s what color psychology says.
I want to dig deeper – where do these claims come from? Which study? I’ll try to find out.
In any case, the gray month will definitely be interesting, especially after this low-energy blue experience. I’m really curious to see how my mood and energy (or lack thereof) will develop.
My Trick for Feeling Better
When I feel like this, I have a trick that helps me feel better quickly – but only if I actually do it.
Step 1: I write in my journal. Just putting my feelings on paper often helps me understand what’s going on, and I usually feel better right away.
Step 2: If the feeling is stronger, I make a list of everything I could do right now that is possible and available to me, and that could help me feel better. My list usually includes things like:
- A walk
- Music
- Meditation
- Eating something healthy and enjoyable
- A fruit smoothie
- A warm, scented bath
- Even something as simple as checking off tasks from my to-do list or tidying up a little.
The key is that this list should be made in the moment – not an old list. Only then do you truly know what feels right for you at that exact time and what is actually possible.
Then, I choose 1-3 things from the list and do them. And every single time, after I follow through, I genuinely feel much better.
This always proves to me how important writing is. How it clears the mind and helps you find a way to help yourself.
Writing is a MUST. It’s as essential as personal hygiene – because it’s mental hygiene.
Physical and Emotional Waves in the Blue Month
I shouldn’t forget to mention that I had headaches for several days in February. One day, it was so bad that I even had to reschedule my workout.
On February 20th, I wrote about feeling irritable and unproductive.
It’s interesting – in my blue month, sadness and dissatisfaction started surfacing.
These feelings aren’t new – they’ve always been there, somewhere in the background – but now, they’re coming to the surface.
They didn’t come up in my red month. Not even in purple. But now, in blue, they’re showing up.
Coincidence? Maybe. I don’t know.
I’m just writing down the facts, like I always do. Observing.
February Felt Too Short
On February 26th, I wrote about how this month felt way too short – not in terms of actual days, but because I didn’t manage to do half of what I had planned.
On top of that, I spent at least half the month feeling completely out of it.
We had guests for ten days, plus a birthday celebration and all the preparations leading up to it. There was so much happening in my personal life that I barely had time to write. And once it was all over, I needed a long time to recover.
That’s why I wasn’t productive. And that’s why the month felt so short.
Saved by Yves Klein Blue
What saved me in the end was a blue sweater – a gift from my friend at the end of the month.
Not just any blue, but Yves Klein Blue.
Wearing it, I felt like a walking canvas, an artwork in motion. The color was so vibrant and full of energy that it gave me an instant dopamine boost, and I finally started to recover energetically.
I practically lived in that sweater until the end of the month, haha!
So, in the end, my blue month didn’t feel as bad as it did mid-way through. But emotionally, it was definitely the most challenging month so far.
Why Haven’t I Painted Yet?
It’s been months since I last painted. I wanted painting to be my adventure for this month. But the real question is – why haven’t I painted until now?
This project has been going on for four full months, and I still haven’t made time for it.
Is it because my mini studio is a mess, and it would take a full day just to clean and organize everything before I can even start?
Or is it because I know that once I begin, I won’t want to leave?
Once I enter that inspired, creative flow, I don’t need anything else – no food, no drink, no breaks. Nothing. And right now, that’s just not realistic. There are things in the real world that need to get done.
Or maybe… it’s something deeper.
Maybe I don’t allow myself this kind of reward – this guilty pleasure. Because I have work to do.
I’ve always had this underlying guilt when it comes to painting. It feels selfish, like I should be doing something more useful, something that benefits others, not just myself.
Because the truth is, when I start, I can’t stop. I wouldn’t want to leave my studio, I wouldn’t want to be available to the world for days.
When I’m in my element, I feel like I don’t need to function like a normal human being. I become this creative, ethereal being, completely sustained by the act of creation itself.
Like I don’t need any of the basic things that mortal humans need.
But—this month, I still didn’t get to it.
Update: I did manage to clean my studio! So I’m one step closer to painting.
Final Thoughts: The Lessons of Blue
This month wasn’t what I expected.
I thought blue would be calm, familiar, effortless. Instead, it turned out to be mentally intense and emotionally draining.
I can’t say with certainty that blue was the reason for my low energy. There were many factors – the cold, lack of vitamin D, sleep deprivation. But one thing is clear:
If I had worn red, yellow, or pink, I know I would have felt different.
Would I have been more energized? More uplifted? Maybe. But I chose to stay with blue, to sit with whatever it brought up.
And that’s the point of this project – to experience color, not just wear it.
Now, I’m stepping into gray month – a color that, according to color psychology, has no positive psychological effects. If blue was tough, I can only imagine what gray has in store for me.
But one thing’s for sure – this will be a whole new kind of challenge.
Next up: Gray Month. If blue already pushed me mentally, I can only imagine what gray will bring. Stay tuned! You can also revisit my previous months: Black, Red, and Purple.
