What Colors Can and Can’t Do
When the psyche is struggling, colors can’t “fix” things. Their influence is subtle. Just like with medication – one pill doesn’t cure an illness. It takes time and continuity. Sometimes colors can work instantly, especially high-chroma ones, boosting mood or confidence. But they can’t resolve problems that have been building for years and are currently at their peak.
Turquoise felt good on me. But I didn’t expect it to solve anything.
Space, Silence, and Small Shifts
At one point, I finally had the apartment to myself. I can’t even remember the last time that had happened. Being alone fills me with energy. I meditated. The tension in my chest and throat was still there, but something shifted.
I let go of making to-do lists. Instead, I decided to move through the day by feeling. What needed to be done would get done. Slowly. Step by step. Without overthinking or analyzing.
A few days later, there was silence again. Calm. Gratitude. The heaviness hadn’t disappeared, but it was lighter. I wasn’t in a passive mode anymore. I felt motivated to work on my project – and I chose to use that moment, knowing it might not last.
Integration and Direction
During this time, I decided to enroll in a year-long education in neuro-architecture / neuro-design. I don’t see this as something new or separate, but as part of the same whole. Color, architecture, design, space, body. For me, they all belong together.
In July, I also attended an event focused on colors and materials. The building itself was inspiring, and we were given a guided tour, including a private art collection. In one turquoise-petrol room, several women from the group told me I had to take a photo there – that I blended perfectly into the space.
Turquoise as Sunlit Blue
One important observation this month came from comparing turquoise to blue. Blue had completely paralyzed me before – I couldn’t move forward at all. Turquoise, although closely related, does something different. It wakes me up. It doesn’t let me fall asleep.
For me, turquoise is a sunlit blue. A more active, more positive blue, carrying a bit of sunlight within it.
Even though my psychological state was similar to earlier phases, I didn’t lose my spirit. The weather in July wasn’t particularly summery – cold, rainy – so I can’t attribute this to sunshine alone. Still, it was summer, somewhere in the background, and I won’t completely exclude that factor.
Walking and Looking Ahead
Toward the end of the month, I walked a lot. During those walks, ideas came – not only for this project, but also for what might come after it. Movement in the body created movement in my thoughts.
On the last day of turquoise, I realized I was ready to leave it. I was already looking forward to white – simply because it offers more choice, more space, more ease.
And that felt like a good ending.
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